Bible

Next year I lead a small group that is part of a Christian group on campus. This week I’ve forced myself to sit down and start thinking about the technicalities of how it will run to little avail. As I was writing out a prayer today I described it as if the glasses to my mind’s eye had been taken off and everything is now unclear. I sense the importance of what this group could be and yet the thoughts come through smokes and mirrors, preventing me to lay a finger on any concrete ideas. And as much as I try to reject it as truth, I come back to lack of Biblical reading. As much as I praise Biblical devotion, my actions speak otherwise. “Actions express priorities. (Gandhi)” I’ve been praying for struggle and challenge a lot recently, while denying the one source for struggle at a moment’s notice. I used to hate certain people for asking the question “well how are your devotions going?” whenever I was having a tough time, but I am slowly beginning to see why. At present I lack a daily devotional and ironically enough a loss of words on vision. I guess we’ll see soon enough how connected the two are.